too early to tell

I thought I would probably post today, but I'm not going to. Not really anyway. I don't feel ready to talk about camp... I still need to get used to it.

I'm sick of feeling awkward and out of place. I had a whole semester of that. Summer isn't supposed to be that way. Summer is supposed to be best friends and family and beaches and coookouts and bonfires and festivals and driving around singing country music.

I just checked my email and had several businessy things I need to take care of. This stresses me out because I'm not going to get to them... ever.
Will someone do some research and tell me which med schools to apply to? And then maybe fill out the application? Yeah, thanks.

Oh, and if you feel like sending me mail this summer:

H.T.
c/o Camp Notre Dame
400 Eaton Road
Fairview, PA 16415

Oh boy

Well, I start working at camp today and I'm really nervous. I think this is mostly because there are still a lot of unknowns. It will probably be better when I get there and get to know camp and the people I'll be working with better. But, eak!
From here on out I'll be at camp from Sunday day to Friday night.
I'll give updates when possible.

Here's a reason why I love him

Let me tell you, it really sucks to have your boyfriend go into the Army. Especially if you don't know when you'll be able to see him again. Maybe September! Maybe Christmas! Maybe February or March!
Last night I cried a lot and ate a whole bag of chocolate covered pretzels from the Ritz in one sitting. This seemed like not the best way to cope, so this evening I decided to try to pack my apartment and drink mojitos. One half of a mojito later, I called my sister to see if she would go see Knocked Up with me. I'd heard it's really funny, and being at my apartment alone just wasn't helping the situation. She said no, that she had to study (for her GRE's), so I texted Markus to see if he wanted to go. This is a funny little (and maybe a bit masochistic) game we've come up with where we pretend we're not apart.
Well, my freakin' awesome boyfriend said YES! So we both rushed to catch the 7 o' clock show (mine started about 15 minutes late), and were able to watch a movie 'together'. It was great fun, and we're hoping to do it again sometime soon, but this time probably with a rental so we can talk more and make sure we've got the timing right.
Thanks babe.

In other news, I just checked my email and had my first group email from Bon Secours. It looks like Nicole, Stephanie, and Cassie are the other volunteers, though the email mentions that one more will probably be joining the group. Getting that email definitely made this seem more real, and I'm both very excited and very nervous. I really do think it's going to be a great year.

Hilarious graffiti

This post is for djamine, a person I don't know. In fact, I don't even know her real name. But any friend of Craigmary is a friend of mine.




This is the best photo I could get while driving, and this one took a couple trys! Although not an easy subject to photograph, I chose this graffiti because it makes me laugh every time I go by. The bottom line says "Sparky Webb has AIDS."
Yeah, I know laughing is totally inappropriate, but seriously, who would write something like that?

Does this mean I'm an alcoholic?

The other day I was at my parent's house and realized we have a ton of mint growing out back. This made me think, "Mmmm. I like mojitos."

So I promptly ran to the store and bought some rum, lime juice, and club soda.

That night I made myself a mojito and watched a movie.

The next day I put my mojito in a Starbucks travel mug and took it to the Gannon library with me while I researched med schools.

Right now I'm drinking the delicious drink and watching the news (and blogging).

This much solo drinking would normally make me worry, but the thing is, this limey, minty refreshment is just sooooooooo delicious that I don't even care!

On another note, my life is weird. I've been trying to do some self-reflection in all of this alone time that I've had since Markus left. At times I feel like I'm benefiting, then others I just feel more lost. I have a lot of discerning to do, and it's just really overwhelming.

I keep wishing someone would just tell me all the answers to my life questions, but I know that wouldn't be life at all.

It would be nice to be a real person

I want a great dane soooooooooooo bad.

Markus said that when we get dogs they have to be medium-sized, at least until we have a house and big yard. And I have to agree, that big boy wouldn't fit very well into my little apartment, or any apartment for that matter. But still, my oh my, I sure do want one!

Summer is sometimes boring and that's OK.

I have a pretty boring life these days, but I'm okay with it. Mostly I've just been hanging out with my sister, and I'm glad for the opportunity to do that. I just keep thinking that in a couple weeks when camp starts, I'm never going to see anyone. That sort of bums me out, but I think camp will be fun. On Saturday I went to a staff meeting/sleepover at CND, which turned out to be a pretty good time. I was having a really sad miss-Markus day all day, so I didn't really want to go, but when I got there I forced myself to be friendly and everything turned out alright.

I'm just realizing how incredibly lame this post is, but I truly have nothing very exciting going on these days!

Today I'm going to go to the Blasco library to get a couple books, and then to the Gannon library to continue with the med school search. Wednesday morning I have a meeting with Dr. Andraso (my advisor). I need to fill him in about Bon Secours and let him know that I've decided that I will not be applying to LECOM. I imagine he will be mad. I'm afraid of this situation. Ugh.